When I started this blog all I had in mind was it would act as a vague journal for a specific, yet crucial, part of my life. At that point in time I didn't know what to call it. The first thing that came to mind was WTF - a globally known acronym yet closely fit the nagging question in my head at the time (i.e. WTF have I gotten myself into?).

As time went by I somehow forgot all about it. Perhaps due to my concentrating my energies at something (someone) else. Cleaning out an email account made me stumble upon it. Reading the first 3 posts reminded me of everything. And is somehow giving me encouragement to breathe back life into this blog. I don't know how, or what, I should be putting here. I'll think up of something.

Now the acronym takes on a different meaning.

3 years and 9 days, to be exact.
Since I told her everything 3 years and 10 days ago.
Since I told her how she makes me feel.
Since I told her why she makes me feel that way.
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Since I told her how I have finally fallen completely for her.
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And I know she will feels the same way for me too.
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It's been that long since.
But to this day, I know.
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Now I am and will be truly happy.
Happiness restarted.

(This post is an answer to this.)

Restarting happiness.
That's what I will call this sojourn.
She makes me happy.
I want to make her happy as well.
I told her everything yesterday.
How she makes me feel.
Why she makes me feel that way.
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And how I have finally fallen completely for her.
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I hope she will feel the same way for me too.
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Someday, perhaps.

Two months has passed.
I think that I am doing alright.
I now know that I can do it.
But will she stick around to make it happen?
That is what I fear.
That is where all this anxiety comes from.

A burden has been lifted from within. 
And yet I feel a steadily escalating sense of foreboding.
Perhaps the timing was wrong.
Maybe.
But still, I will push through.